our 1st valentine day
2 weeks ago on the 14th of feb 2007,me and dearie celebrated our 1st valentine's day together.it was on a wednesday.tat day was also one day after i finish my paper.the nite b4, dearie had overnite sailing.i sms him 2 tell him 2 fetch me after work b4 goin back his hse.since 7am,i waited for his call.as time pass,i got more worried and disappointed.finally ard 12plus in the noon he called me.he lied 2 me tat he still not yet finish work. and will only finish ard 5.so i told him 2 cum pick me up straight after work b4 goin hm 2 change. but he kept rejecting. he kept sayin he go hm 1st then come which he normally wun do.cos on the way hm he will pass by my hm so normally he will come pick me up in order to save petrol.frankly speakin i was quite piss off.
ard 4 he called 2 say he is comin over.i ask him wat he wearin.surprisinly he told me shirt,which i got suspicious cos he seems all well dressed but how cld wen he told me he was in camp.after abt half hr later i call him again 2 ask him where he was already.he told me eng neo.i ask him y eng neo wen he is comin st fr tuas.he told me he send his fren 2 orchard.hmmmm....now the qns mark....fr orchard 2 my hse by eng neo way?not once did we ever use tat road back hm fr orchard.normally its dunearn rd instead.and ok my dearie wun do such thing as 2 send his fren go orchard b4 comin 2 pick me and go town again wen he haf 2 pass by my hse to go orchard.well wen he reached he was all well dressed.i demanded him 2 tell me the truth.he confess.he say tat wen he call me ard 12plus he was already at hm.tats y he say he dun wan fetch me after work.he only told me part of the reason.but i nvr pursue it anymore.while drivin he suddenly told me he did not get me any gift.went suntac 2 catch a movie.booked the 7plus pm show.had dinner at swenson.dearie wanted 2 buy a cake.he wanted 2 go east coast after the show 2 cut the cake.so we ordered and reserved the cake at swenson.went for a walk den wtach our show.the show ended at 9.after tat we went took those photo sticker den went collect our cake fr swenson.
we headed 2 east coast.found a quiet spot.b4 alighting fr the car,dearie ask me go help him take sth fr his car boot.i told him 2 get himself but he insisted tat i get it fr him.hmmm...sth fishy here.but i did wat he ask me 2 anyway.wen i lifted the boot,i was stunned for words.he decorated his whole car boots.he lay a cloth,hang the words "i love you" and "happy valentine",brought wine along,buy my fav pooh bear,roses and did a so call wind chime box which he decorated himself.we found a table,cut our cake n sip our wine.spend ard 30-40min there b4 heading home.as usual dearie slept over.tats the real reason y he went st hm after work instead of fetchin me n rush 2 design n do all these things.i was really surprise cos i did not expect he wld gif me anything not to say do all these.he was busy wif work the past few days.dearie is not a romantic guy but he still did all these for me.thou it may seem simple and easy 2 most ppl but it meant alot 2 me.i appreciate and like it very much.thanx dearie...i luv u..waiting for more v days wif u 2 come.
The Only One...
Sunday, February 11, 2007
vday
in a low mood right now. supposed 2 b studyin but i juz cant concentrate. found out tat he lied abt the call between him n his ex. duno shd i confront him or not.if i confront, a quarrel will start. if i dun, he think he got away wif it n will continue doin it.i'm so tired....wat actually do the both of them want?y muz they do it behind my back? aren't they tired. they cld juz tell me and i will leave. i dun wana b the fool nor the third party.its affecting my concentration in studying for the exam.
v.day is comin 2. guess i'll b spending it alone.any1 wana date me out?haha...but i charge.past few v day,i'm all out on a date.last yr was wif zh.he went town 2 queue 4 the choco.den came fetch me.wanted 2 bring me 2 safari but i turn him down.yeah...cos i told myself,i'll only go wif some1 i luv.we den went 2 town hang ard den went east coast till 1am.nth special thou.he tried his best,he did touched me during those times,but i hurt him very deep.i'm sorry.i guess i m havin my retribution now.
its been long since i last received flowers. thou its expensive n waste of money, but i guess i'll smile upon receiving it.i know i wun receive it for the time bein.mayb it will happen in the future ba.
The Only One...
Saturday, February 10, 2007
exam
exam comin in few days. 1 paper 2 sit for. completed FIT(but not sure of result.haf a feeling tat i could not make it) so now left DCST.hopefully everything goes smoothly den i can consider grad fr NP with a dip. not sure abt my future. whether 2 start work, continue gettin a deg in either local uni or foreign uni or work full time study part time. in a dilema....
bd comin in a mth plus time. dun wish for any present. juz hope tat i cld b happy, find back my happiness.i juz hope tat everything cld stop. every nonsence fr whoever will stop.
The Only One...