it doesn't pays 2 b gd
tis is duno the how many times i'm bein criticised, being said by him le. out of gd will, i help him cut the ham, so tat he has lesser things 2 do. and i cut like the previous ones. instead of a thank you or mayb an ok, he say "seems like u duno how 2 do hse work." wtf... somemore infront of his sis. kaoz... few days ago, i helped him wash his clothes, socks etc...damn dirty and smelly. after tat dry it 4 him. instead of a thank you again, he shouted "didn't i say put ur hse, y bring here and there" kaoz...its his workin clothes lor. he tot its his hm clothes which he put at my hse. without findin out, he shouted at me.i dun expect a thank you or sth in return but i dun need criticism and shoutings 2. its nt i want 2 b xiaoqi or wat but it really doesn't pays 2 b gd.each time i do sth for him, i get these in return. sometimes i feel so stupid...y do all these for him.i gotta learn 2 b clever.mind my own business,stop doin things 4 him,stop helpin him,stop offereing my help.watever...at least i wun get all these in return. ARGH!!!! i'm sooooooo angry rite nw...............my stupid dearie piss me offfffffffffffffffffffff.juz feel like biting him nw
2day is new yrs eve....in few hrs time will b a brand new yr.nowhere 2 go 4 countdown.mayb juz go tw hse wif him 4 the bbq den back 2 his hm 2 slp.juz hope tat my life will get better for me in 2007 and everything will turn out fine.juz hope tat i'll b happier in 2007 too cos 2006 is a lousy yr for me
The Only One...
Friday, December 29, 2006
2007 new yr resolution
My New Year Resolution for 2007
- To graduate from Poly, enter a Uni and get a Degree
- Learn driving and obtain a driving license
- Earn and Save as much money as i can
- To lose weight. approx 5kg
- My parents, relatives, love ones and friends have good health, happiness and lots of money
- To find or have a real, trueful, happy and everlasting love/relationship
- To find back my long lost smile
- To be happy once again
The Only One...
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
2006 christmas
well...here is an update of wat i did during the weekends/holiday:
friday (22-12-06)
me and dearie woke up at 8plus. slack awhile then went hougang market 2 haf our breakfast cum lunch at 11. after breakfast went back dearie home. not long we are out again. drove his mum 2 his youngest sis sec sch. they were there 2 buy her books and uniform as she will b entering sec 1 next yr.waited there with them till about 2plus we went back home. took a nap not long after i reach hm. dearie went played his com game.dearie woke me up around 6.no 1 was home except his dad.but he went out soon.we decided 2 catch a show.went bishan 2 haf our dinner and watch "curse of the golden flowe" there.not a very gd plot.but its eye openin.after the show, i did nt wan go hm straight so dearie n i went for a drink outside my hse the coffeeshop.after drinkin, he sent me hm.
saturday (23-12-06)
dearie came pick me up after his soccer match at 11plus.went haf lunch wif his bro n him.after lunch went home. took a nap.again he woke me up around 7plus. we had a tiff n it lasted quite awhile. only had a few spoonful of rice for dinner. eventually ard 12, we went fisherman village cos i wanted 2 drink. ordered a bucket. wow...its so damn cold there. its rainin n its very windy. was quite high tat nite, mayb cos i'm nt in a gd mood so the drinks some how affected me. we went back his home ard 1plus.went bathe 1st after tat his turn.we immediately slept after he came out fr bath.
sunday (24-12-06)
we woke up ard 8. couldn't slp back cos i was feelin a lil hungry and my head hurts. he brought me out 2 haf breakfast.yeah!!! we went eat mac big breakfast. after tat we went back hm.he slept abt 1 hr later.me played com,but soon after, me felt tired 2 so went slp. he woke up play his game. me slpet till 5plus.by then all his family members haf went over his aunt hse.we planned 2 haf a nice n exp dinner. but decided 2 put away wif it cos his fren say go clubbin later on. instead i treat him 2 "zhu chao" at ponggol plaza kopitiam ard 7plus. cost $30.after tat abt 8plus,went hm slack.fell asleep.he fren called at 10 2 say they are goin down momo le. went went prepare then head down momo 2. its packed inside but not very crowded. there were 6 or us. tw and gf, jx, 1 of their fren, and the both of us.they ordered a barrier of tiger.only dearie, me, tw and jx drank. we drank quite fast. after finish the barrier, we went dancin. in the later part, dearie saw his old frenz.they treated us martell.left at 2plus.but dearie was drunk.tw they all left earlier but i called them back cos dearie couldn't even make it le.luckily they are still nearby. they came back and tw drove dearie car.jx drove tw car. we fetch tw's gf hm 1st b4 fetchin us hm. dearie vomited throughout the whole journey.tis is the 2nd time i saw him vomitted when we go club.the 1st time was b4 we were together and its at dbl o. the 2nd was this.well...the kelian me took care of him the whole nite.after reachin hm, he went bathe den he went slp,me went bathe after him den went online awhile b4 goin slp.
monday (25-12-06)
we woke up ard 9plus. wanted 2 go out eat breakfast de. but dearie kept slackin. eventually did nt went out eat cos his dad bought breakfast back. his family went over his uncle hse around 1. we went ponggol plaza cos i haf the cravin for soft drinks. went ntuc buy my soft drink at same time we bought some ingrediants cos dearie wanted 2 cook. bought cheese and mushrooms. went hm after tat. slack and i fell asleep ard 3plus.dearie woke me up ard 5plus for dinner. he cook the whole bake rice himself. he spend 1 hr plus doin tat.haha...but yummy...my fav baked rice and its his 1st time cookin tat. taste not bad, except a lil salty. he played com game n i fell slp again.haha....i'm juz like a pig. woke up at 8, a lil argument followed. but a short while later we ok le. he decided 2 go watch movie. he booked 2 tix at GV grand for the show "a nite at the museum" at 9.40pm...we went get ready and reach there juz in time for the show. after the show, he send me hm.
The Only One...
Sunday, December 24, 2006
one mornin
the time now is 9plus...and i'm awake le...wow slept at 3plus yesterday.dearie went back slp after our breakfast.
2day is christmas eve. wonder how will i spend it...
The Only One...
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
hungry
i'm HUNGRY!!! but dearie is sleepin "SOUNDLY" beside me...hahaha!!! feel like wakin him up and ask him bring me out 2 eat. but he sure dun wan de. plus somemore nw rainin. he sure lazy de. tis few days keep raining. so cold... he is on 1 week leave. and i'm on sch holi. so hopefully we'll make full use of it.. hmmm...wonder how wld i spend my christmas???where will i spend it???who will i spend wif??? 5 more days 2 go
The Only One...
Sunday, December 17, 2006
delirium
haf i done the rite thing? will this make us better or worst? when will we quarrel again? when will it happen again? i'm afraid...really afraid...afraid tat after i've done so much, bad things will happen again...i'm in a delirium
The Only One...
Friday, December 15, 2006
love can hurt
Love Can Hurt
When you love someone so much
it can hurt you.
When you care for someone so much,
who knew?
When you give up everything for that one person
and they take advantage of you
It hurts you so bad that you know for the rest of your life you'll be sad.
Love can Hurt To no end
Someday you won't have that "forever" friend.
Love can Hurt
Your tears they fall like the rain in the skies above,
And you end up losin that one and only true love.
Love Can hurt
more than you know,
Your loved one you just had to let go.
Love Can Hurt More and more
When you feel like there's nothing left to give,
And there's no reason left for you to live,
And your filled with nothin but pain and sorrow,
And you know you can't take this pain for another second, minute, hour,
not even for tomorrow.
Love Can Hurt
It can cause people to take their own lives by a pill
rope
or a knife.
Love can hurt so much it kills the faith and hope inside.
Love can hurt
sometimes you just feel like your ready to give up ready to just die.
Thats how much love can hurt .
The Only One...
Monday, December 11, 2006
strength vs courage
It takes strength to be firm.
It takes courage to be gentle.
It takes strength to stand guard.
It takes courage to let down your guard.
It takes strength to conquer
It takes courage to surrender.
It takes strength to be certain.
It takes courage to have doubt.
It takes strength to fit in.
It takes courage to stand out.
It takes strength to feel a friend's pain.
It takes courage to feel your own pain.
It takes strength to hide feelings.
It takes courage to show them.
It takes strength to endure abuse.
It takes courage to stop it.
It takes strength to stand alone.
It takes courage to lean on another.
It takes strength to love.
It takes courage to be loved.
It takes strength to survive.
It takes courage to live.
The Only One...
CT
dear came fetch me after his game yesterday mornin. went hm eat den acc him wash car. after tat went back slack. at nite met up wif tw n jx. 4 of us went ktv till 12am den went back hm.
gosh.....havin common test(CT) n yet i still ktvthe nite b4. hmmmm CT ended 2day. only haf 2 sit 4 1 paper tis sem. so nw havin sch break till 3rd of jan.
The Only One...
Friday, December 08, 2006
fish and co
went ate Fish and Co last nite. dearie came fetch me after work. b4 fetchin me, he and tw went autobacs 2 look at the duno wat headlight thing. both of them want 2 install. it cost 370 bucks. and only 1 stock left plus they haf 2 wait for 2 hrs. so they decided nt 2 install 1st. after tat he came fetch me and tw went hm fetch his wife. me n dearie were supposed 2 go ktv de but dearie told me tw ask whether wana eat fish and co not. we reach orchard (glass house) early, ard 7. reserve the pl and waited for tw 2 come. they came at 8. i ordered a fish n chip, dearie ordered a seafood platter for 1 and tw n his wife ordered a seafood platter for 2. the mushroom soup is nice. after tat tw n his wife went 2 book tix for their genting trip and told us 2 meet at a pub in selegie cos there got singing competition. we reach there early, went searchin 4 the pub but couldn't find. therefore dearie suggested eating rochor beancurd. omg eat again.... tw called but we told him could nt find the pl so after eating the beancurd, we went back hm.
dearie is havin duty 2day.so i'm spendin my time at hm studyin for my common test which is on mon. so tat tmr n sun i no need so stress.can relac abit n enjoy wif dearie. feel like goin shoppin tmr. need 2 buy a dress for my cousin rom on the 16th. dearie bought a shirt le so guess on tat day, mayb he will wear tat shirt. think he has caught a flu....hehe..c i 2nite if nt lazy, boil some herbal tea 4 him.
The Only One...
Monday, December 04, 2006
new hp
these few days was wif dearie. cos he was a 1 week leave. thurs we went bugis 2 haf a walk. saw the sony ericsson roadshow. dearie wanted 2 buy the sony ericsson m600i hp. he was eyein 4 quite some time le.saw it at the roadshow. dearie ask if i wanted cos my hp is spoilt.he told me 2 think carefully whether i want the k800 or tis.well i was quite attracted 2 tis m600i cos of the colour of the phone(pure white), the touch screen and the functions. but 1 thing bad is it dun haf a camera.after a lil consideration, me decided 2 buy e m600i. dearie bought 2 sets of m600i. 1 for himself n 1 for me as a christmas present. he paid 1000plus altogether cos each set cost 600.we both bought the white colour de as we prefer tat 2 the black 1. after tat we went wanton mee at duno where but its near parklane. quite nice la.
fri, we went ps 2 get my sim card cos my sim card broke into 2. luckily still in time cos my stupid dearie still can go joggin ard 7plus when the shop close at 9. by the time he came fetch me, its 830 le. he sped all the way 2 ps. after tat we slack at ps playin our hp. after tat went momo meet tw n the rest. been quite some time we went club le. dearie drank quite alot tat day. been long since he drink so much le. at the same time he is tired 2. duno y he drink so much tat day 2...he send me hm after tat.
dearie came pick me up ard 2plus pm on sat, went ponggol plaza haf lunch den fetch his 2bros. the 4 of us went expo 4 the sitex fair.buy our memory stick n his car charger. the memory stick is 4 his christmas present.haha...walk round the whole sitex n big boyz toys fair.by the time finish it was 7plus le.the 4 of us cant decide wat 2 haf 4 dinner therefore dearie suggested goin bedok. he brought us there 4 dinner. by the time reach his hm its 10 le. slack den bathe den ard 2plus we went 2 slp.
woke up ard 9am. dearie ask me wanna haf breakfast not but i'm not really hungry so he woke up play game instead. at 10, he went for his soccer game wif his bro. i stayed inside the room continue watch my "my girl" vcd. dearie came hm ard 1 n told me he has 2 go back camp cos they last min call 2 ask him go back. got operation. he fetch me hm n on the way i pack both of our lunch. reach hm ard 2. eat, slack. dearie call ard 3plus n told me he can go hm le. on the way will come fetch me. he came at 4plus den acc him go j.east cut hair. slack n eat my long john. went hm ard 10plus.
My new Sony Ericsson M600i:
The Only One...