will it happen?
guess we r really gonna end le ba. he sounded serious and cold wen he say tat. he sounds like he really mean it. he told me he doesn't want 2 c me. he told me nt 2 call him. he told me he wanted 2 b alone. he changed...changed 2 another person. he was cold 2wards me. not a single sms or a call fr him the whole day. i waited and waited and yet i juz continue 2 wait.
he say tat liking a person doesn't mean tat they haf 2 b 2gather, doesn't mean tat they cld live wif each other. sometimes i wonder y muz he make me believe tat we will get married n yet sometimes make me feel tat he is juz lyin 2 me.
mayb rite fr the start, being 2gather is a mistake. mayb confessing 2 him is a mistake.mayb i shd nt hold him back anymore.mayb without me, he wld b much more happier.mayb i shd let him go.
but how do i let him go? i cant imagine life/days without him.i haf no courage. i m juz so weak. other den cryin, i can only cry. i wish i haf the strength 2 let him go. i wish i cld b bold enuf. will i b able 2 pull myself up if he go? shd i delete away our pics in my blog n frenster? shd i change my status in frenster fr "in a relationship" to "its complicated" or mayb "single"? y muz i drown my sorrows wif bottles of liquor and cans of beer everynite? y cant it b tat he his hugging me 2nite? does he still luv me or has he already fallen for some1 n haf a change of heart? does he still want 2 b wif me? who can gif me the strength 2 carry on? who can guide my way?how long more will i haf 2 cry? i feel so empty so lost.
wonder wat is he doin now... is he out enjoyin or is he playin games or is he sleepin. wonder does he miss me? will he think of me? is he worried abt me? cos he knows i'm out drinkin. but i guess he's not worried abt me ba. if he is worried, he wld haf called me 2 ask abt my safety le. does he know tat i miss him? does he know tat i'm cryin rite now? does he know tat i haf nt been sleepin for the past few days cos i'm thinkin n missin him? does he know tat he is hurting me?does he know tat i really luv him ?words left unspoken
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