dear's bd
dear's bd juz pass. bought him a liverpool jersey which cost $90, folded hearts n bought a bottle which cost $17, bought him a card which cost $9 and treat him to sakae sushi buffet which cost $36. altogether spend $152.... my savings for 2 months are use 2 do this. n now i'm totally broke.been eatin vege rice in sch for quite sometime le..how long more muz i eat vege rice???now haf 2 start saving up for christmas. nd 2 buy him christmas present if we r still 2gather. guess vege rice for the next few mths.argh!!!
haiz... me took 2 nites to design his card but he juz look at it for 2 min and the card goes into his drawer le. no expression of any happiness or touched look on his face, juz a thank you. i guess there goes my effort le. tot he wld b touched but i guess the more hopes i put in, the greater my dissapointment wld b. i guess his ex gfs did better job den me ba. guess they design better den me ba. ya...i admit my design r ugly and lousy.my card is gonna stay inside the drawer till the day we break up without him lookin at it the 2nd time ba. sometimes i juz wish he cld take a look more often...haiz...
wonder does he like the jersey??? me thought of every idea wat 2 get for him and tot tis is the best. juz hope tat he really like it ba. wanted 2 buy him a small cake, haf him blow out the candles, even brought candles along. but was rejected by him. there goes my plan. tried 2 think of ways 2 touched him but no matter wat i do, he seems like a dead person, no feelings de. juz a boring look on his face. in the end haf 2 apologise 2 him for makin him so bored after the sushi dinner on sat nite. can any1 tell me wat shd i do?
feel tat i'm changing into another person, another life. changing 2 the type of gf he wants me 2 b. it gets tired sometimes cos he doesn't appreciate some of the things tat i've done and sometimes take me for granted. my efforts r not regconise...sometimes i wish he cld care abt me more, my safety, my well being...i guess i can only work harder ba... jia you, jia you!!!
but after everything, after every arguments, every quarrel, after every unhappiness, sadness, anger, watever lah.... he is still my loveliest, clever, handsome pig( let him c tis sure die de)...oops its bf.. he still holds a very impt pl in my heart. he is still the 1 i long for everyday/nite. he is still the 1 i wana walk down the aisle wif. he is still the 1 i wana hold on to till we both get old... "jian chi dao di"
been havin bruises all over my hands and legs.. elbows, palm, knee, ankle etc... every week there'll b bruises, old one heals, new one comes...pain pain pain..
The Only One...