xiang hui dao guo qu
went watch the banquet juz now. a show tat all the main characters die. a slow n "steamy" show. no harm watchin but money can b valued for better shows.
when i look into his eyes juz now, the sparkle in his eyes n the enthu in him have all disappear.i cant find anything in him tat i can proudly say its mine. i cant seem 2 find those affectionate stare in his eyes.
when k broke off, i lost all confidence in luv. it took me a very long time 2 pick up all the broken pieces he left behind. juz as i finish pickin, x came along n within 1 mth, he left me wif tears for me 2 wipe off alone. after tat, so much tussles happen. i'm forced 2 choose between frens. eventually i chose him. i did not habour much hope den. i was prepared for rejection but things happen when i least expected it. eventually we got together till nw. but nw i m prepairing for the worst again. he may leave any min. i juz feel so hopeless. i'm juz so useless. y will i haf 2 pick up those broken pieces again? we talk abt marriage, we nearly went 2 apply for hdb. almost on the verge of marry. n yet once again it will b gone. how many times muz i fail inorder for me 2 succeed? my heart aches...i feel so hurt. he has changed.he may break off anytime. i'm so scared. i live in constant fear everyday. i cant even slp peacefully everynite. sometimes in the middle of the nite, i will wake up in cold sweat. i dun wanna go thru all these.its 2 much for me 2 take.i regretted not listenin 2 my frenz n fell 2 deep.now its so hard 4 me 2 climb up again.....rite now i'm listenin 2 the song "xiang hui dao guo qu". i really wish i cld turn back time.
The Only One...