my tears
sometimes i wonder... did i make the wrong decision???i wonder if i nvr told him, will i b much happier now? i cried more then i smiled. my eyes are very pain. i cried till my eyes bleed. i wish i cld stop crying. is everything fated? y is fate so cruel then? i don't wanna lock myself up in my room n cry den go out n face my frenz n family happily like nth happen 2 me each time. my eyes swell badly each time i cry sometimes till i cant even open. he nvr once comfort me.i cried cos of him but ended up i'm the 1 wiping my own tears. sometimes even thou he knew i was crying, he still say hurtful things 2 me. juz because he thinks i'm not gd enuf, juz because i cant b the type of gf he wants me 2 b, juz because i cant do wat he wants me 2 do. does he luv me for who i m or does he luv me for who he wants me 2 b? i tot he luvs me but each time he say those hurtful things, those really hurtful things any1 cld say 2 their gf, i'd pause n wonder do he really luv me. mayb i'm really a bad gf, mayb i'm really not gd enuf for him, mayb i cant hit his expectations but i dun think tis is oso the way 2 treat a gf. some ppl told me my tears are precious, n it hurts them seeing me cry. but 2 him my tears r juz any ordinary water. y do i n y muz i cry in silence each time. y m i so weak? y cant i b strong? i tot i haf learn 2 b strong but... i juz wana stop crying. i juz wana smile again.i'm so tired. sometimes when i slp n when i dreamt of us happily together in my dreams, i refuse 2 wake up, i refuse to leave the dream cos mayb only in dreams den we'll b happily together. let me slp forever!!!
The Only One...