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i'm feelin so sucky now... yupz today, 16-05-06... me n dear's 1 mth anniversary...but guess wat... i duno wat happen... he wants both of us 2 cool down for a few days..at 1st he say 1 week, den he say 2 days den later 3 days...remember kel tat time oso told me he wants 2 cool down for awhile. in the end tat awhile became 1 yr which is now.its repeating.haiz...y muz such things happen??? n somemore its our 1 mth...haha i know 1 mth is nth la but the feelin is so sucky..my dear is sick, wonderin how is he now...he has not contacted me since noon. duno y tis 1 week we haf been quarrellin... abt his hse, my hse thing etc...i miss him so much. so so much... wish i cld call him now n tell him how much i miss him n long 2 c him but i cant cos i agreed to the 3 days... dear informally proposed 2 me usin sms last fri..he say its his "cheng nuo"..cos he knows i want him 2 proposed openly. dear was sayin we get engage next yr..but now it seems like its not gonna happen le. he wanted 2 apply 4 hdb..n i know its not e 1st time he askin me for marriage...but now...everything seems gone...guess its my fault ba...i'm such a failure...failed in every relationship..rite now all i can do is wait...waitin 4 tat 3 days 2 end...i still haf 2 more days 2 wait..hopin and prayin he will call me.but...i dare not put in much hope..i'm so afraid..dear ah u told me tat u will wipe away my tears when i cry. u told me tat u wun make me cry n if i do u will make me stop cryin..but i'm cryin now...where r u??? dun u know i'm waitin 4 ur call, ur sms? dear u hurt me...baby i luv u so much
The Only One...