tortured by ur absence
chatted abt u again wif my fren on the fone juz now... he ask how r u and i goin on? he asked how r we progressing...told him tat i guess ur juz makin use of me in the 1st pl. suddenly i realised tat i miss u alot... i miss the 1 week tat we chatted on fone, chated usin sms, and u comin over 2 meet me and fetch me. i miss the 2 days when we met up alone...i miss the way u look at me, how u stare deep into my eyes...i miss how ur eyes melt my heart. u ask me out 2 watch movie tat time, i couldn't make it earlier n now i regretted i couldn't make it earlier. how i wish i could make it earlier tat day so tat i could wear ur jacket when i'm cold inside the cinema. remember u told me tat day tat if i'm cold inside i cld wear ur jacket so i no need mafan go hm take cos u haf 1 wif u already. thou i met up wif u at a later time tat day, i regretted n hate myself tat i cant make it earlier.but i'm happy tat i cld meet u alone tat day.how i wish tat 1 week will last...how i wish tat 1 week will turn 2 mths then yrs... sometimes i'm thinkin... if me and X nvr started and if they nvr did cause so much trouble n misunderstandin and if there aren't so much rumours n talkin abt me...will we ever haf a chance 2 b together? sometimes i juz wish 2 ask u.. r u makin use of me in the 1st pl or did u haf a lil feelin 4 me durin tat 1 week? i dun wana go thru tis...its so torturin...everyday i wld wait 4 u 2 call or sms me...each time my fone ring or sms come, i wld wish it was u..but each time its not. each nite i waited for u 2 come online...but each time we r not fated 2 meet online..when i'm online u r not.. when u r online i m not.. juz like juz now,i noe u r online but i was out... everyday i'll think of u..n whenever i think of u till i wana cry i'll listen 2 the song "xiang ni xiang de hao gu ji"... i remember when we chatted on the fone durin tat 1 week, u told me 2 gif up n forget abt my ex of 3 yrs... but u cant seem 2 gif up n forget ur ex..i know i m nth compared 2 her...i duno wat happen.. y suddenly u will stop contactin me. i dun understand y tat nite when u came fetch me hm, inside the car u suddenly ask me 2 b guai n dun b so naughty. u kept repeatin tat. and after tat day, u stop contactin me le... will we ever haf a chance 2 b together? r u really makin use of me? i told myself 2 forget abt u..but... i juz duno how 2 do it...tis thing is killin me...
The Only One...