happiness 4 upcomin christmas
in a few days time, it will b christmas... i wonder how m i gonna spend this yrs' christmas? clubbin, drinkin, relaxin by the beach or juz stayin at hm? yeah! i only noe 1 thing... tat is this christmas i m single. i can go anywhere i wan n do anything. i wan 2 forget him durin christmas. i noe he'll b busy celebratin wif his gf n his tat grp of frenz. he'll b enjoyin himself so this christmas i wanna b happy 2. he can b happily celebratin it wif his gf, i wan 2 spend christmas happily 2. whether i'm outside celebratin wif frenz or alone at home, I wan my christmas 2 b happy, happy, happy!!!! i believe he'll get his retribution 1 day cos i believe in karma. thinkin of he contactin n bein frenz wif his ex who is b4 me makes me boil. he can keep such close contact wif her but not me who is oso his ex, not even a single call nor sms. i tried not 2 believe tat he's such a guy but he prove me wrong each time. i m feelin better nowadays. thanx 2 all my frenz who stayed by me durin this half yr.
The Only One...
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
we belong togather
this song we belong togather is sang by mariah carey....nice song
Verse 1 ohh ohh ohh ohh ohh ohh ohh ohh ohh ohh ohh ohh ohh
sweet love yeah [yeah]
I didn't mean it when I said
I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should have let you go
I didn't know nothing,
I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could NOT fathom
I would ever be without your love
never imagined I'd be sitting
Here beside myself
Cause I didn't know you
Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I'd never felt
Pre-Chorus 1
The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here cause baby
Chorus 1
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please cause
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on when times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby baby
We belong together
Verse 2
I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Singing to me "If You Think You're Lonely Now"
Wait a minute this is too deep [too deep]
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial tryin to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
"I Only Think Of You" and it's breakin my heart
I'm tryin to keep it together but I'm falling apart
Pre-Chorus 2
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm Throwing things, crying tryin
To figure out where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain't even half of what I'm feeling inside
I need you, need you back in my life baby
Chorus 2
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please cause
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on when times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby baby
We belong together baby
Outro
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please cause
We belong together
Who am I gonna lean on when times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby baby
We belong together
The Only One...
Sunday, December 11, 2005
9th & 10th dec momo
i'm so sleepy.... went momo on fri and sat... n slept 4 abt 8hrs only... went k box wif kaixin on fri b4 goin momo.... find clubbin a little broing le... mayb went wif the wrong crowd ba...nvr really dance on both days... mostly juz lookin ard for shuai ges if not drinkin... feel funny when i dance nowadays, mayb cos my clubbin khakis r not here or is it i'm used 2 go clubbin wif wenguo n frenz? then now nvr contact them le so nvr go wif them anymore. sat was better abit, went 2 momo live band 1st cos need 2 wait 4 hong kai, wilson they all... they 12plus then reach... n i reach there b4 11 wif my ite frenz(weiloon,ivan,jeff n another duno his name)...still got dance on sat but was not as carzy as i use 2 b. hong kai they all finally reach at 12plus comin to 1..... yep...tis 2 days went momo wif him, i no money le n yet he treat me quite gd... juz wana thanx hong kai for the whole new pack of cigaratte he gave me, 4 buyin the sweets & sandwish, the drinks in momo ( think he open 1 bottle by himself ba or share wif wilson) & the accompany.....
hmmm...me driving lesson gonna expire soon le.....gonna gif up learnin le....cos too ex n i no money le.....gonna expire on 13 dec... wait till i finish poly then start learnin all over again ba...haiz....sianz....cant drive own car out le...
++ haf i really forgotten abt him? haf i really forgotten abt our 3 yrs? i'm trying....
The Only One...
Thursday, December 08, 2005
senset bay & MU
wat m i goin 2 write today? hmmm.... me last sat went MU wif 1 of my gf gal fren kaixin n a guy fren deli... accompany kaixin cos she juz broke off wif her bf..... heard her story... thinkin y r all guys like tat de....juz cos other gals flirt wif them, they muz show interest 2 them ma? "him" oso like tat... after we broke off, alot of gals flirt wif hm n he 2 flirt wif them...he may deny but i noe it all.... gettin more n more disappointed wif luv... haiz.... we went back ard 2am... free entrance n free drinks 2....cos deli's sgt open a bottle as he was oso feelin a little down...
on sun...me, kaixin & simin went sunset bay...last time i went was wif him n tat was a yr plus ago le....sun was very bright n hot but i luv it...luv the sun, the sand n the sea...luv the feelin of gettin sun burnt....yeah!!! we were supposed 2 wake up at 8 n meet at 10...haha.... but then cos on sat we parttied till very late so tats y couldn't wake up on time...woke at at 9.30 thanx 2 mornin call fr kaixin...went jurong pt meet her then togather go harbour front interchange meet simin...was abt 1 when we reach sunset bay....hehe...took alot of pics....the 3 of us like zhi lian kuang lor... had lots of fun there... even saw a fantastic scene fr a ang mo...haha.... lots of hunks, shuai ge, yandao....see till we drip saliva....oops!
guess u guys wana noe how i feel these few days rite? hmmm.... i'm feelin better.... nvr think of him tat much le... mayb 1 day few mins onli ba.... haf i improve? hopefully there will b 1 day tat i will totally wont think of him....i'll try my best.....
these r some of the pics we took at sunset bay:
these r the 3 pics me n kaixin took at MU:
The Only One...
Thursday, December 01, 2005
memories of 2004 christmas & lonliness of upcoming christmas
its 25 more days 2 christmas. every1 is happy tat christmas is comin n i shd b happy 2. but i m not happy or excited at all. how i wish christmas day wont arrived. i dun even haf e mood 4 christmas....
i used 2 like christmas alot... 4 the past 3 yrs, my christmas was wonderful... cos 4 the past 3 yrs, my christmas was spend wif the guy i luv most....kelvin. for the past 3 yrs every yr we wld go out count down 4 christmas etc... either wif frenz or us alone...b4 goin out, we wld 1st go 2 his aunt hse n haf a family celebration... its was wif him tat i 1st ate turkey n christmas log cake. its so delicious. his relatives wld haf all tis great food at their hse.then after eatin then we wld go out.
last yr christmas eve, we went count down in orchard wif his frenz... we walked almost the whole orchard takin photos etc... then after tat we went 2 party world ktv at chinatown. at 1st we were supposed 2 go shenton way's ktv but it was fully booked so 1 of his fren came 2 fetched us 2 chinatown. we had our countdown at the ktv.... its was very very fun....i enjoyed myself..
on christmas day itself, we went 2 his aunt hse in the evenin 2 haf the christmas gathering.... after tat we went 2 east coast... his frenz organised a bbq... we ate the bbq food again, played games etc... i was very happy on tat day....very happy tat i haf him wif me, very happy tat he cld celebrate wif me, very happy tat he did not haf 2 do guard duty. 
but all these haf already passed... 1 yr passes le...this yrs christmas will b very diff for me. he wont b here celebratin wif me... he will b celebratin wif his frenz or gf i guess.... i dun wan 2 spend my christmas alone without him. i wana spend my christmas wif him but i noe its impossible...i dun wan go through tis... now i really dun wish 4 christmas 2 come. i dun wan really dun wan.... i m soooooooooo sad.... whenever i think of christmas or hear my frenz sayin how they gonna celebrate it i'll b very very sad n down..... i dun haf him 4 christmas... ppl ask me wat wld i like 2 haf 4 christmas.... i juz simply say....him! tis wld b my best present le.haaaa no 1 cld gif me tat present... i'll nvr ever receive it. sometimes i'll juz look out at the sky at nite praying silently, hoping tat i cld spend my christmas wif him... mayb even wif him & his frenz its ok... but tis hope n dream seems so far fetched fr me... wat can i do? haizzzzzzzzz............ if i couldn't spend my christmas wif him then juz hope tat christmas wont come ba....
The Only One...