on his birthday
2 days haf passed... last fri on the 11th of nov was his(my 1 & only luv...kelvin) 22nd birthday. his present and card was ready by then...me bought him a PSP. yeah tats rite a PSP. 2 days b4 his bd on wed, i sms him. this is wat i msg him: hey, rem me? u free tis fri? neh nth impt...juz askin... guess wat? no reply fr him. waited n waited till 3plus i fall slp still no reply. on thurs mid nite or fri 12am i msg him wish him happy birthday. 1 min later he replied 2 thank me. was very happy...me told him i got sth 4 him n asked him is he free 2 take it fr me on fri.n oso asked him whether he wans me pass it 2 him personally or asked 1 of my fren to passed it 2 him in case he dun wanna c me.he told me he take it fr me...i oso asked him is he free cos i wana treat him 2 dinner but he told me his family celebratin 4 him n oso asked me wan come along not...but i replied not 2 nice...if i go wat abt his gf? then i told him up 2 him lor...he decide as long as he happy can le...after tat he nvr reply le...he told me he is in camp n when he book out he will contact me 2 take fr me.
at 4pm on fri he still not yet call or sms me...i sms him told him let me noe wat time he wans me pass him...1min later he call me..he told me he book out long ago n went to take his bike n now juz reach his hse downstairs...i ask him wat time is he gonna take fr me..he told me he needs 2 bathe 1st....ard 5 like tat...after bathing he will call me.he called me after his bath.he told me he is ready 2 come over my here but he has 2 leave at 6 cos his aunt is at his hse le.was dissappointed when i heard he is leavin so fast but glad at the same time cos thou time is short, at least i still get 2 c him. he arrived ard 5...saw him on his bike fr far. rushed 2 buyhim a mini cake n a ribena then met him at blk 3. when i arrived me was panting n sweatin like hell cos i did not 1 2 waste any time.gave him his cake n drinks n then his present. he kept lookin at me...i very much wanted 2 c him, 2 look at him but i dun dare..i noe when i look at him tears will start fallin.but my eyes betrayed me...i steal some glances at him.we chated n he ate his cake. he ask me how was i? how did i hurt my head? he actually knew i hurt my head. he told me it was his fren who told him tat. he said his fren saw duno me or my pic.wat hurt me is he knew i hurt my head long ago but he did not even msg or call me 2 ask how was i. ya i know i'm nobody 2 him now so y shd he ask abt me.he kept on askin wat i bought for him. i told him it was sth cheap. he wanted 2 open but i was scared he dun like so i told himn 2 go hm n open. but he kept on askin...so no choice haf 2 let him open. told him 2 open juz the side. he did. when he saw wat i bought 4 him, he broke down....he cried....when i saw i couldn't control my tears 2.he asked me how much...y i spend so much....he said i've no money le still spend so much.he asked how long i took 2 save....he said tat i was silly...think he cried 4 abt 15min... i duno y he cried...he can ignore me for 2 mths n now he still can cry...i juz wana noe wat is he thinkin? wat is he feelin? r these crocodile tears? did he shed his tears 4 fun? i told him since he open alittle le...he might as well open all...he did. he open everything...took everything out fr the box except the device he nvr take out...cos as he is takin out he cried again...he told me he was very happy, he liked it very much but at the same time his heart is hurtin...cos i spend so much. after he packed back the PSP n stopped his tears, he suddenly told me y do i keep sayin he has a gf... he told me he dun haf any1. now all he wans is 2 faster complete ns... he oso suddenly told me he is gonna finish ns soon...n oso asked me is there any1 goin after me or is there any guy keep on accompanyin me.i duno y he asked tis for.... soon 6pm is up. he has 2 leave. he wanted 2 walk me up but i told him no need. i told him i acchim 2 his bike when he leave i'll leave. as we were walkin 2 his bike, he asked me can he "sayang" me? i smiled n he stroke my hair n then stroke again.. saw his bike...his name n my name...the word kel_aud is still on his bike... my num n his num 69 is still on it...nth change..he told me reach hm sms him n he will oso.i felt like my heart is gonna melt soon...was smilin n walkin at the same time when i walk hm
when i reach hm not long he msg me....
kelvin: gal gal..i reach home le..thank u 4 present. i like it very much... sorry 4 letting u spend so much...u oso take care of urself.
me: its ok...no need say thank u or sorry...i did it willingly de.u oso take care n enjoy ur celebration...
kelvin: ok...yes mdm
me: haa...u enjoy urself ya...if u playin mahjong later...hope u win lots lots...k la i dun disturb u le.take care
kelvin: actually i been missing u all the time
me: thanx 4 tellin me...me oso miss u all this while. n oso my mum has been askin abt u but i duno wat shd i tell her...nvm ba..as long u happy can le
kelvin:ok...u take care...but rest assured u r the onli gal gal i love.
me...ok thanx...u r oso the only guy i luv...go enjoy ba
kelvin: ok...gal gal take care
at nite ard 11.30pm
me: hey ur bd gonna end soon. wish u last time HAPPY BIRTHDAY... hope u like my present n enjoyed urself...miss u lots
kelvin:thank u...miss u 2
in between he told he is watchin movie at causeway pt wif his 2 guy fren...i asked him wan go momo but he say no he goin hm after tat....was sad when i heard tat cos in the noon he juz ask me when i was free durin the weekdays...we can catch movie or sth... n now he is watchin movie wif his frenz...i noe i m stupid 2 believe in his honey talks..i noe he wont ask me out de...i noe he is juz lyin 2 me...y did i still believe it...y muz i make myself more miserable? on the phone in the noon b4 we met he told me say 1 day we go out he will like treat me back...but wat i wan him 2 noe is i buy the present not cos i wan him repay me back...its i sincerely bought it 4 him de. i dun wan his money or anythin.anyway i told him 2 sms me when he reach hm so at ard 2plus he sms me
kelvin: i go slp le...gd nite miss u
me: ok.. nites...sweet dreams of me only k?
kelvin: k
haha..i noe i sounds stupid...i know he dun even wana bother abt me...so now 2 days passed..on sat n sun he did not even contact me. not even a single sms. i remembered tellin him 2 let me noe when he has read my card n test the PSP..but till now not a single word fr him.i noe i can forget abt him askin me out like wat he told me. I M STUPID.... SO DAMN STUPID. I HATE MYSELF...Y M I SO STUPID?
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