the days durin 3yr 3 mth anniversary
dear (kelvin) happy belated 3 yrs & 3 mths anniversary(actual day was 20th nov)...i wished i cld wish him personally but i cant. i only can wish him here silently. 5mths haf past since he broke off wif me. tat happen in june. he came lookin 4 me on aug 20th, our 3 yrs anni. now i wished tat i cld go back 2 tat day. i cld only call him dear in my heart
he has stopped contactin me. i gave him his present on the 11 of nov, tis mth abt 2 weeks ago. durin tat 1 hr, he was so lovely. how i wished tat time cld stop durin tat 1 hr. but 1 week later, few days ago, he shouted at me. on sat mornin, i asked him for his msn add in frenster. but he ignored me n deleted away my msg, asked him again n oso sms him but was ignored oso. in the end i juz msg n told him he was dao n oso wished him gd luck etc for all his bball formation
for the past 1 week since last tues i cant get 2 slp. each day my sleepin hrs will only b 3 to 4 hrs. i wld slp n after 3 hrs i will get up 4 no reason n start 2 cry. thinking back of our past, him n how he hurt me. everyday its like tat. the me now is juz like a livin dead. i look no diff from those chinese vampire. face pale wif those very dark very dark eye circle ard my whole eyes tat stands out fr my face. i will break down sooner or later. i cant go on without sleepin. i wished i cld slp but i juz cant get 2 slp. everytime i tried n close my eyes, everything will juz flash back automatically. its simply beyond my control. i tried v hard not 2 think but i juz cant. i tot tat i've already got over it since tis is already the 5th mth without him. n oso for the past 3 mths i progressed very well. i cld slp well for the past 3 mths. thou 4 the 1st mth without him was like hell but after tat 1 mth i cld stop thinkin abt me. i duno y its comin back again. mayb cos of his bd tat day. saw him cryin, n his sms tellin me he miss me n luv me all those. mayb cos of tis reason n oso how he ignored me after his bd tat cause me 2 haf sleepless nites.
i wana thank all my frenz for taking turns 2 acc me at nite chattin on the fone. they haf work, haf studies, haf ns etc..but they sacrificed n acc me.. thou not the whole nite but juz 4 tat few hrs i'm greatful enuf. thanx alot.....
goin 2 sch soon. n i've not slept the whole nite.... feelin very sucky now...
The Only One...