lonely heart
today is 20th oct 2005... it shd b our 3yr 2mth anniversary...but where is he? where is my dear? where is my kelvin oh? since 12am till now, i've been waiting...waiting 4 his call... we haf broken up since june..but i still cant let it go. 20th is gonna end soon. i'm wondering where is he now?wat is he doin?is he in some1 else's arm? is everythin goin smoothly 4 him? is he happy? most importantly do he miss me?
still rem 20th aug...our 3 yr anni...he came lookin 4 me in dbl o...was so touched...he even msg sayin he missed me...my tears dropped.. my heart was touched.. had a short chat wif him below... both of us broke down...after tat day we did met a few times, havin lunch n goin out together..occasionally he wld call or sms me..but now everythin stopped..it lasted for only abt 1mth...i'm so stupid 2 believe in tis fantasy... he does not belong 2 me anymore. he belongs 2 another gal.y do i still miss him? y do i still cry over him? y do i still wait 4 him? i tried very hard 2 forget abt him. thinkin he belongs 2 others..but no matter how hard i try after 4 mths my feelin is still there...
i took my result 2 weeks ago..i did very badly...my results dropped dramastically...compared 2 the 2 previous result, tis was way way way worst then the previous. everything i did seems 2 go wrong 4 me. he's not ard 2 gif me the strength i needed. he's not ard 2 encourage me n 2 push me. tat is y...n my result shows. how i wish he is here 2 go thru all tis wif me. 2 gif me e support n 2 console me. how i wish he wld tell me once again tat no matter wat i did or wat went wrong he is always here beside me. i longed 2 hear all tis words again. fr his mouth, fr his heart... i'm waitin..........waitin 4 him...waitin 4 my dearest kelvin oh...waitin 4 miracles 2 happen. waitin 2 feel his warmth once again....no matter how long e wait is....i'll b waitin
The Only One...