If ever there is tis day.......
No 1 will know how long tis game of love will last. but if tis day will to come, tis is all 1 wan u to know. I've lost!!!
I'm trying to forget about it,
I'm trying to let it go.
I'm trying not to think about it,
I'm trying not to let my feelings show.
Our lives are on different paths,
And I'm happy we finally spoke.
You have so much you want to do,
And I feel like my heart just broke.
We have so much in common,
But you r so far away.
We are perfect for one another,
But we'll never see that day.
We have so much history behind us,
But the timing is always wrong.
The years just continue passing,
And our lives move right along.
I thought we might have a chance,
To finally get it right.
Not just two friends from way back then,
But I guess it's not worth the fight.
Sometimes life seems so unfair,
When things don't go our way.
I wanted you to be it for me,
I wanted you in my life to stay.
Everything seems far fetched again,
Because I realized we'll never get to be,
Anything more than destined friends,
And that's so sad to me.
I wish I would have held back,
I wish I didn't give in.
I wish things could be different,
I wish that I could win.
Win at getting your heart,
Win at making you see,
That we are truly meant for each other,
And that's how it should be.
So I'm trying to forget about it,
I'm trying to let it all go.
I'm trying not to think about it,
I'm trying not to let my feelings show.
If all we'll ever be is friends,
I guess I'll try to move on.
Just know that my heart is always open,
And my love for you will never be gone.
The Only One...
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
yr 1 final yr exams
hmmmm...... today wat m i gonna tok abt? my final yr exam grades in yr1 np? ok, results was released on 21 april 2005 ( thurs)...... announcement says tat we cld check our grades fr 9am onwards which i never did. cos i know the f***ing system will b down.... duno y we paid so much each sem n the server is still like tis.... jam when too many ppl go in at the same time.....
well me checked my results ard 12plus noon.... m satisfied wif it....cld say real satisfied.... scored afew As.... n the rest Bs..... (**Grinz**).may not b as gd as the others but to me its gd enuf.... i failed one of the subs in common test but luckily exam got a B. think my exam for tat sub scored almost a perfect score tats y i cld get a B.... well clever me rite....haha.....
ok every1 was happy for me....my parents were the first to know my results.... they seemed quite happy wif the results.... next is my dearie.....he is oso very happy wif my results. n kept on praising me non stop... silly him haha!!!! followed by my bf mum n relatives...they too praised me.... last to know were some of my frenz...went to meet them wif my dearie later in the nite... think they r envious of me when they heard it...haha!!! hey guys mayb i can consider giving u all tuitions ya.
well juz wanna say thanx to every1 for the support, encouragement n the praises b4 , during n after my exams.... esp my parents for their understanding n my beloved dearie who stood by me all these times enduring my nonsense when i m preparing for the exams.
The Only One...
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Infatuation Vs Love
Infatuation is instant desire - one set of glands calling to another.
Love is friendship that has caught fire.
It takes root and grows, one day at a time.
Infatuation is marked by a feeling of insecurity.
You are excited and eager, but not genuinely happy.
There are nagging doubts,unanswered questions,
little bits and pieces about your beloved
that you would just as soon not examine too closely.
It might spoil the dream.
Love is the quiet understanding and mature acceptance of imperfection.
It is real. It gives you strength and grows beyond you - to bolster your beloved.
You are warmed by their presence, even when they are away.
Miles do not separate you.
You have so many wonderful little films in your head that you keep replaying.
But near or far, you know they are yours, and you can wait.
Infatuation says, "We must get married right away.
I can't risk losing them."
"Love says, "Be patient. Don't panic.
Plan your future with confidence."
Infatuation has an element of sexual excitement.
Whenever you are together, you hope it will end in intimacy.
Love is not based on sex. It is the maturation of friendship,
which makes sex so much sweeter.
You must be friends before you can be lovers.
Infatuation lacks confidence. When they r away, you wonder if they r cheating.
Sometimes, you check.
Love means trust. You are calm, secure and unthreatened.
They feel your trust, and it makes them even more trustworthy.
Infatuation might lead you to do things you will regret,
but love never steers you in the wrong direction.
Love is an upper. It makes you feel whole. It completes the circle.
It fills the empty space in your heart.
Love is elevating. It lifts you up.It makes you look up.
It makes you think up. It makes you a better person than you were before.
If you have love in your life, it can make up for a great many things you don'thave.
If there is no love in your life, whatever else there is has a lot less meaning.
The secret of our being is not only to live but to have something to live for.
The Only One...
Sunday, April 10, 2005
21st birthday celebration
hmm...wat shd i say? actually i've change my blog acct. the previous acct was such a failure...
well since i haf change my acct then i shall update on myself then...
one of the most major event of my life has passes.. yep its my 21st birthday which falls on 30th march 2005 (wed)...well but me was having tis final yr exam on tat day which was also my 2nd last paper...i had quite a few celebrations... to name i had 1 on the 26th march 2005 (sat)... was organised by my beloved parents n relatives... was held in one of the condo's function room... cld say it was quite"grand"... there were like 50 or 60 plus ppl turning up. n i mean juz my family n relatives excluding frenz. admit tat i receive quite alot in return. haha!!!
another was a mini birthday celebration esp for me by my dearie... held tat on the 1st april 2005 (fri) cos he is in camp during the weekdays n cld onli book out on fri evenin plus me havin major exams. my dearie bought a cake n brought me to west coast park tat evening. yep n its juz the two of us. he sang "happy bd" to me. its simple though but it meant alot to me. a nite tat i will always remember... noe every1 will b wondering wat he bought for me... tis wonderful yet silly dearie of mine bought me a 100plus present. he spend his entire savings for the mth. juz wanna say thanx alot dear....i realli appreciate watever u haf done for me. i know tat u wld rather give up n sacrifice everything juz for me :]
well the last celebration was on the 2nd of april 2005 (sat)... went clubbing cum celebration on tat day.... supposed to go dbl o. but landed in chinablack. the reason was quite lamed as 1 of my fren was working there previously but he got sacked n therefore was banned fr dbl o for 6mth? yepz shd b 6 mths ya. well we did not really queue tat nite...or was we early...watever it is, sth damn f***ed up happen at the entrance. guess wat me n my fren(a gal) was stopped. y? cos we were wearin sandals. tat bitch workin at the entrance stopped us. n i mean, hey for goodness sake tis is not my 1st time wearin tat sandals to chinablack n its not juz any other ordinary sandals u slut, its leather ark's sandals which cost 30 something a pair. y was i not stopped b4? she gave us the f***ing reason tat its their dress code. if u wan wear sandals wear it wif heals. damn it! u mean the rule was imposed juz for the 2 of us? cos i saw some others wearing sandals without heals juz walkin in like tis. one of my guy fren told her off n she was like wat? was so pissed of. had to walk over to far east to buy a pair of new SANDALS WIF HEELS. no choice cos some of my frenz haf went in.n the time is already 9.30pm... if i cant find any i'm gonna make her take off her shoes n let me wear. but luckily one of the clothes cum shoe shop is still open...so we went to buy it... went back to queue but tis time the queue was so damn long but luckily a guy sold us his tix... so we cld skip the queue...thanx lotsa dude!!! saw tat bitch at the counter. gave her tat pissed of look. juz for ya bitch: hope u cld get rape by some mother f***ing dogs n juz get lost fr tis world. stop polluting tis world.n i swear each time i c u i will gif u tat pissed off look n if u were to provoked me another time then i'm sad to say tat i will double return wat u deserved. ( ok i know i'm evil. but tats wat she deserved n tats for provoking me when i did nth in da 1st pl. sorry to say tat but tis is nth compared to wat i did b4). yep so watch out bitch!
ok forget abt tis. when i went up chinablack i was like in heaven... dancing n drinking all nite long. we ordered quite alot... few jugs of burbon, beer, vodka mixtures, half a bottle of chivas, etc.. admit tat i drank quite alot... burbon, chivas, my fav vodka ribena(yum yum) n yesh my muz haf tequila. i still made it. i was not drunk haha to those who wana make me drunk. ok i know nth will happen even if i'm drunk cos my dearie was wif me tat nite.. abt 10 over ppl went tat nite...was very fun.... u guyz made my nite wonderful.... thanx lotsa!!! we left abt 4 n went mac for supper... was hungry after all those dancing.... me ended my nite ard 6.... was really tired out by then
The Only One...
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
esp to u dear
esp dedicated to my dearie
(wat i wld say to him when we 1st met)
i wish upon a star; wanna be right where u are.
u set my world on fire. baby i got a crush on u.
i wish upon a star; cant u see how right we are.
we should be togethe. baby i got a crush on u.
i used to turn around and walk away. never stopped to play.
cos there was no attraction. but in my heart u start to grow on me.
kind of suddenly. so now i haf change direction.
knowing it might seems strange. u haf came over me. feeling da luck has changed.
do u want me, like i want u? in dis cold world,
where dreams are few. baby, i want u; is it too much to ask for?
i will take u to places u nvr been. if u jus give in.
so baby, its now or nvr. me & u, u & me; living a life in harmony.
its magic, baby i haf got a crush on u.
_____i uv u_____
The Only One...